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Rocky's Testimony My name is Laurance Kanae. I'm 42 years old and currently incarcerated, I've been incarcerated since 2001. I'm serving a 20 year sentence with a 8 year minimum. But I am serving something greater than everything else and this is my testimony. I was born into the mormon church and our family went to church, but I never really believed in what was going on. As I got older I went to check out the girls at church and hang with my friends. I prayed to God and even asked in Jesus name. I did this when i was convenient for me. In other words, I knew of a God and of a Jesus but I never really knew them. For that very reason my life seemed to be spiraling out of control. I did everything that was wrong in life like Drugs, Alcohol, Sex. I became a dad t the age of 20 and also got married at the same age. (I was still doing the same old things after I got married and had a child, like drugs, alcohol, and then adultery.) I was an abusive father and husband. I have three children, I divorced my wife and then remarried her. Since then, I've been in and out of jail. I had so much anger and I confused that as love. In the year 2000 in the month of November (it was a Friday) I was called to the police station and was being charged for the crime I'm now serving. I was questioned and then processed and then released. At that point I was thinking of suicide. I prayed, but that seemed pointless. That night I moved out of my home and moved in with my parents. I was really suicidal. I asked my mom if she could call a psychiatrist and it was urgent. I started seeing the psychiatrist the very next day. I discovered a very important fact in my life and I hated this God that my parents served. I never knew I had this in me. I made peace with the people who had done me wrong and tried to make peace with God. I started to repent and read the bible and prayed every day, but nothing happened. You see no one told me how to do it. On the 4th day, I had slipped a rope around my neck and stepped on to the railing and was going to end it all, but something urged me down. I continued to pray and repent. I was even fasting without realizing it. It wasn't until the 7th day after seeing the psychiatrist, my mother had to go the bank. She ran in and I started to pray, I was really desperate. I prayed with hopelessness. I came to that point where I was beaten and tired and I said "Jesus, God I quit, I can't do this any longer, I give up." 7 days of fasting, repenting and reading the bible, trying to kill myself on numerous times. I stopped trying to fight it. I turned it over to the Lord. I was trying to control everything, but I couldn't and the Lord was just waiting for me to give up that control so He could forgive me. The next thing I knew, I was in tears, praising His name and a relief came over me. It was like the weight of the world was lifted off of me. In that very second, I felt Love like I never could imagine. My mother came out from the bank and she saw me crying and she herself started to cry, no knowing why. I told her what had happened and she started to see the change in me. She could see a glow about me. I was born again at that point. This was just the start of what the Lord has done for me. That next day I was outside on the porch, I was reading the Bible and the "daily bread," I asked the Lord to show e that He is really there, as I looked into the sky there was a lonely cloud, the sun was behind me. As I looked at this cloud it started to separate and it was like the sun was directly behind it, I could see a wall and then what looked like a castle, as I started to focus on the castle I could see something descending down. I saw a person as clear as I can see what I'm writing. There was a peace about it and as he came closer, I closed my eyes and when I reopened them up again the cloud was there again. I know that the Lord came and showed me what I needed to see. On that day, I mad a choice that I was going to serve the Lord. Not long after, I was convicted for my crime and am new currently incarcerated. The whole time I told my family, "don't worry! The Lord has a plan for me." Let me tell you how awesome the Lord is. Since being incarcerated, have became a reverend, my wife and children have given themselves to the Lord Jesus. The Lord has been using me to share His word to a lot of men who are seeking for something and someone. I have learned how to play the guitar to praise the Lord. And I am no longer in bondage to the world. I am no longer in prison spiritually, I live life inside these walls more abundantly then most people live there lives outside in the world. If there is one hope that I have, it is: I hope and pray that my testimony will encourage you all to have faith in the Lord and His promises, because He is a faithful God. God bless you all and may you all live life more abundantly in His goodness. God Bless. |
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